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I love Effy.  She's nothing like me, yet I feel so connected to her.  A fictional character who causes destruction wherever she goes. 

I don't have much to say today, I just really like this (and wanted to share).

Also, Boston is back on.  Probably in the fall.

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Today is Kelly Clarkson "Stronger" because it's catchy and its been stuck in my head for the past week or so...

Today is also Valentine's Day.  No special Valentine this year, but I have my friends!  We are gonna go see The Vow and eat hot dogs.  Sounds like fun :)  Today was my day off, so I got to sleep in, take a long hot shower, catch up on my shows, and be lazy.  It was a lot of fun.  Already better than V-day last year.  Even though I had Shaunathan, we were barely together.  We went to Zephyr and that's it.  And it was awkward.  And then we broke up 2 weeks later.  I haven't talked to him since he got back from Europa in October, I feel kinda bad.  But he hasn't tried to talk to me either so....

This weekend I had some people over for drink, and it was a lot of fun.  About 10 people altogether, we played drinking games and pretended we were in school again.  Ericho basically locked me and Jaime together at the end of the night, hoping something would happen (it didn't).  I'm almost 100% sure he's not interested.  I don't want to say anything though, because I have a bad history of ruining friendships that way.... So we'll just keep our thing going and see where it takes us.  I'm just taking everything one day at a time.

We're doing a Harry Potter marathon, watching all the movies (because he's only seen the first couple).  Last night was Sorcerer's Stone, tomorrow is Chamber of Secrets. I have to make something better than Mac N Cheese for dinner though, I'll look up stuff tomorrow while I'm at work.

Also, Mom called today- gave me news.  We have to be out by March 23rd.  That's right after I get back from my cruise :(  I'm happy, because we will finally get out of this mess, but I'm sad because I have to leave my home.  And I have to live in Pleasanton!  That's not gonna be fun.  Not that there is anything wrong with Pleasanton, but still.

Almost time to go to Spanky's.  Happy Valentine's Day!!

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First post from my cell phone. I've been bummed that Blogger doesn't have an official app, but I figured it might be best to just bookmark the page in safari and do it that way. Not as eat, but still workable. I need mobile options, I never want to post when I'm at work, and when I'm at home on my comp I'm looking at other stuff (not porn). I'm not sure how to do my soundtrack vids though. I'll experiment for a bit and see what I can do. Also this post might have errors, spelling/grammar wise since I'm kinda writing fast- and with my thumbs. It's Friday night and I'm in my uber comfy bed, with my new headphones on, reading and rocking out. Bliss! This is my favorite thing to do. I love having my nose stuck in a book. The only thing I'm missing is a milkshake. Chocolate! I found a couple jobs I want to apply for. But I keep exiting before I finish my cover letter. Nothing sounds right, nothing can convey how much I want to be considered, how much I want to be given a chance without sending desperate. Or I just come off as boring and unintelligent. Which of course I am not! I have always had trouble converting my thoughts into words, which is the main reason I stopped writing. It got really hard. But I guess it's supposed to be hard. And I'll only get better by practicing... I keep accidently adding spaces when I got for letters on he bottom row. Ugh maybe it will just be easier to do this on an actual keyboard.

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So this is the new year, and I don't feel any different.  

New Year's Eve was kind of a disaster.  A fun disaster, but still a tornado-like mess.

I'm not going to drink again until my cruise in March.  That's my number one New Year's Resolution.  Another is to stick to a regime: Gym 3 times a week, nightly floss when I brush my teeth, wear my contacts more often, eat healthier.  I need to be in better shape than I am, and I need to start caring about myself more.  I can't treat my body like poop if I still want to be hot when I'm 50.

I lost my Driver's License, and now I feel weird without it.  I need to go to the DMV but its actually pretty annoying.  I don't have time enough on my lunch break, and if I go on my day off, it will have to wait until next Tuesday.  I think that's my best bet.  I want to take a new picture too, and that will give me ample time to get ready and look decent.  If I go on my lunch break I'll look haggard and tired.  I dont want that to be my ID picture!  Also, I'm annoyed because I just have to go back and get a new one in a few months when we move.  So this is approx. $25 I shouldn't have to spend, but unfortunately, I do.  Ugh, sometimes I really disappoint myself.

I love Sherlock Holmes.  Not the Robert Downey Jr. movie, but the BBC series.  I watched the first of the new series tonight and I loved it!  Can't wait for next Sunday.  I hate that there are only 3 though.  Skins starts up soon too.  I'm still trudging my way through the first series, I have one episode left.  Then s2, s3, s4 and s5 again.

Anyway,  I need to be asleep right now.  It's too late for me and I am not going to want to get up in the morning.  Hopefully I fall asleep fast.  I have been having trouble with that a lot lately.

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Today's song is "Dead Hearts" by Stars.  Stars has some great songs, and this is one of them.  I don't have as much as their music as I would like, if I get an iTunes gift card for Christmas from someone I'll probably buy more of their albums.  Stars has some heartbreaking songs, if you're in the mood for depressing look them up.  At the same time, they have some happy ones... so it's a toss up.

We went and saw "Like Crazy" today at the Vine.  I have been wanting to watch it for ages.  I really liked it.  It was sad, and slightly depressing, but I really enjoyed it.  Anton Yelchin is kind of going bald, but he does a good job; Felicity Jones is really pretty, and their relationship is very believable.  The tension and stresses they experience seems realistic and brings an authenticity to the movie that I love.  The ending is open to interpretation, but I think they stay together.  Kourtney doesn't.

We're gonna end up moving into my aunt's house.  It's nice and big, but at the same time, it's not our house.  It's gonna be a big change.  I keep questioning what I should do.  Should I just move out on my own finally?  I think I'm going to stay until I know someone who wants to move out, or until Kourt starts paying rent (when she moves back permanently).  At least all of our furniture will fit!

Tomorrow is the Shark's game! I'm very excited :)  I hope we win!  Their season has been topsy turvy lately, so it would be nice if it got a bit more consistent.

I should take a shower now, before I get too comfortable.  I'm going bowling later, and although I dont want wet hair, I don't want to take one when I get back.  Maybe I'll actually blow dry it tonight.  Or put it in pigtails for bowling.  I want to look cute tomorrow (although all my clothes are dirty!).

I can't think of anything exciting to write right now.  I want to talk about my feelings lately, but I keep getting distracted.  Maybe another time will be better.

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Today's song is "Eet" by Regina Spektor.  I don't know why I always pick slower songs to be my soundtracks for my blog.  I like a lot of fast paced upbeat music as well.  But I think the slower, prettier melodies stick a bit longer in my head....

I've been really good about going to the gym lately.  I bailed last night because my back hurt, but Kourt and I went tonight.  It was a short session, but better than nothing.  I need to do it as often as I can.  I wanted to take a Yoga class tonight but no one wanted to do it with me.  So maybe next week.  Tomorrow is a Zumba class I kinda want to do.  But, again, I won't do it alone.  Hopefully Missy will be up for it.

Tomorrow I have to go to the dentist and get some cavities filled.... I'm not looking forward to it.  Ugh, it scares me.  They give you shots..... IN YOUR MOUTH!! Ouch.  Anyway.

Josh has been emailing me lately.  It kind of threw me off life at first, because I resigned myself to the fact that we would never be friends again.  At least, nowhere near where we were before.  I still don't think I could be super close with him, at least not right away.  I still get anxious when he's around- and not in the good way.  But that's just my great wall of China acting up again.  I'll have to see what happens.  I don't know why all of a sudden he's started, but I did notice on facebook that he's not 'in a relationship' with Erin, so maybe that has to do with it...

I might have to start hiking!  Jaime wanted me to go with him this past Saturday, but I was working.  I said I would go (because he loves it so much) but we'll have to see if I like it.  Maybe I'll like it a lot more since it won't be 105 degrees outside when we go?  And we'll have a plan, unlike when I went with Missy and Dainelle over the summer.  Anyway, I'm actually kind of excited about it.  What if I am more outdoorsy than I ever thought?  Hmm..

Sidney Crosby is out again... concussion symptoms.  Indefinitely.  Lame.  The Sharks can't win a game to save their lives right now!  I think we have won one game in the last 6.  WE are so behind.  What I don't get, ist hat we are a good team!  We have great goal scorers, and a great goalie.  So what's going on??!  We need to get our heads in the game.

I'm thinking of redoing Adventures in Recapping.  But its a huge time commitment, and I don't know if I'll be able to do it.  I failed at a whole season last time... But maybe I'll try again.  Being Human and.... The River.  Or a new show that I can't think of right now (I'll look it up in a bit).  I have always wanted to be a TV writer/reviewer, and at least this will get me a bit closer than just sitting on my butt!

It looks like we are going to be moving to Pleasanton when we have to leave the house.  My aunt has an extra house that's empty that we can rent.  She has completely updated it, but hasn't rented it to anyone.  So I think we're gonna take it.  It's 3 bedrooms, nice neighborhood, close to downtown.... we'll see how it goes.  We'll be able to store everything in our garage, so we won't need a storage unit, that's a plus.  But Tia will be our landlord, and that is kinda scary to mom and dad... but it would be loads better than an apartment.

I really want to be fit and tan by the time we go to Miami.  I messed up on the hotel reservation, but whatever.  I wanted to stay at the expensive hotels, but I figured cheap would be better.  Now the hotel it came up with is so far away, its gonna cost a ton just for a taxi to go out to the clubs! Or get to the Port.  I need to look into if I can cancel it....

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I am officially going straight to Hell when I die.  Why, you may ask?  Because of poor Hunter.  Dad took him to the pound this weekend when I was in Disneyland and had him put to sleep.  I feel so bad for him.  The tumor on his eye, his arthritis.... Every time I saw him I felt guilty.... and now he's gone.  He was probably scared.  Ugh I am a horrible person.